Binged
Well, my progress went down the drain because I binged yesterday like a pig....and today. Took some laxatives tonight though, and since its been reallyy cold and snowy, I will make the weather my excuse to stay home to detox tomorow, start over.
The boyfriend makes me want to be normal.
He makes me feel normal. Around him, and onlyhim, I eat with such joy and such ease I almost, almost, forget to feel guilty between the bites.
I miss him all the time, I wish him luck tomorow at his doctors appointment, and I appoogized that I couldnt be there like I always try to be. Nothing serious.
But I will worry untill I hear back from him.
Tomorow is always a better day.
I'll restrict but I will make sure to drink lots of water to hydrate. I will curl up by the fire with a good book and skip breakfast and skip lunch and have a small dinner and if anyone asks me to eat I'm burried in my schoolwork or I think I'm catching a cold. My stomach is upset.
My empty pink stomach will be gratefull, she earned herself a day off, just like me.
okay here it goes. My mind recites the majic words over and over :
Tomoro coffee lettuce mustard pepsi diet apple water (EXCLUSIVELY!!!!!)
Tomorow I will be okay, he will be okay, everything will be pink and empty and perfect.
The boyfriend makes me want to be normal.
He makes me feel normal. Around him, and onlyhim, I eat with such joy and such ease I almost, almost, forget to feel guilty between the bites.
I miss him all the time, I wish him luck tomorow at his doctors appointment, and I appoogized that I couldnt be there like I always try to be. Nothing serious.
But I will worry untill I hear back from him.
Tomorow is always a better day.
I'll restrict but I will make sure to drink lots of water to hydrate. I will curl up by the fire with a good book and skip breakfast and skip lunch and have a small dinner and if anyone asks me to eat I'm burried in my schoolwork or I think I'm catching a cold. My stomach is upset.
My empty pink stomach will be gratefull, she earned herself a day off, just like me.
okay here it goes. My mind recites the majic words over and over :
Tomoro coffee lettuce mustard pepsi diet apple water (EXCLUSIVELY!!!!!)
Tomorow I will be okay, he will be okay, everything will be pink and empty and perfect.
Taking enzymes will help too. You have to take super digestive enzymes that will digest your food that is meat or carbs. You can find at any health food,or vitamin shop.
ReplyDeleteThanks that's a good tip ill see if I can get hold of them.I think they make a healthier substitute for lax.
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